Your favorite darkness, Your favorite half-light

I'm releasing a 0 song EP called "shit my pants", with my band, 'Shit my pants and the shit my pantses'.

Now I remember why I HATE livejournal.

I told Adam not to drive ot work in the snow. But he did anyways and crashed the car.


I think i'm going to drink a whole bottle of something or other now. That is all.

Another wonderful year!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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Oh i'll be so glad when xmas is over. People are just crazy everywhere you go in public. Going to the store is just...yeah.

My financial aid got fucked up thanks to gayass baker. I'm gunna try and take out a reaaaaallllly big student loan and get any bills and debt taken care of, so that my credit can recover one day. I'm hoping my dad will cosign. Like the rest of america I guess im going to be saddled with student loan payments til im like 80.

I have such a headache. I couldn't sleep at all the last few days. I tried to sleep during the morning but my mom called, my dad called, a political survey called, and like 10 telemarketers. I eventually just gave up.

BLEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEH

Is it time for spring yet?

I seriously had to buy 4 books, and a thing of software for Comp I. In fact I had to buy ALOT of books. My "Legal ethics of medical practice and biotechnology" book actually looks like something i'd be interested enough to read in my spare time, so I'm looking forward to that class. I'm sure after a few weeks of going twice a week I will change my mind.

I'm annoyed though. Nobody knbows if i'm supposed to be wearing scrubs yet. I've asked and asked, and yet no one at the school can seem to tell me. Now i've seen phlebotomy students in scrubs in some of my classes so that leads me to believe I am supposed to wear them..yet maybe those people are also confused. I bought them anyways. Unfortunately the woman at the bookstore was in a damn hurry so i had to just pick a size and go. Well now I have a set of scrubs that another person could wear at the same time. I thought scrubs ran small so I got what i thought was a women's Lrg. They were unisex (I.E men's sizes) so they are gigantic, yet still not cut to fit boobs so the top only fits right in the boobs and the rest hangs funny. Not to mention the pants are too long, and the BUTT is huuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuge. They may have to switch those for me because the drawstring wont tie very tight and I'd really rather avoid losing my pants at school for as long as possible.

Im so fucking bored. Where is everybody???????????????????????

There's a serial killer in Lansing (even though the news doesn't dare say "serial killer") targeting women. 2 killed in just the last 2 days. It's not that close to me or anyone I know, but i'd be careful when walking alone or anything like that. It's pretty common sense, but DO NOT let any man into your house that you do not know!!!

It's better to be safe than sorry.

Thanks for all the Harry Potter spoilers darkcube

You have been booted from my friend's list. Hope you never go to the necto again..I'll take a shit in your drink.


Any other wiseguy wanna tell me who dies when and what happens at the end of Harry Potter? Because I don't care who you are, and how fucking hillarious you THINK you are, I will boot your ass too.

Then I'll kick you in the nuts. Mother fucker.

I am SO pissed. SO SO SO PISSED.

GRRRRRAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

The other day much to my suprise (or horror) I found this napping on my bedroom screen. I thought he had crash landed and died..but then he flew up into my face. So i guess he was just sleepy.



and here's the outside view

If I am so shameless, and useless than please do remove that prom picture that includes Myself, and Kat from your Myspace. If Gork was beating you/stalking/threatening you/using you as an instrument for drama..then prom shouldn't have been a happy memory for you, and thus you need no photo reminders.

You've made it clear I am no friend of yours (regardless of the fact that I was one of your ONLY friends for years) and see no reason for you to use my image on your website. If you desperately want this photo on your site, feel free to apologize for treating me like a piece of shit, and then ask my permission. Since we both know that won't ever happen..just remove it. If not i'm sure myspace abuse will gladly oblige.

I imagine the person this is directred at knows who they are, so I won't mention her name. I hear she doesn't like drama.

Ugh. I have slept about 5 minutes in the past 3 days. I wish the fucking Dr would just give me another prescription of ambien. Every time I go to the Dr I complain about insomnia..and everytime I get a damn dirty look and an "uh huh". Well gee asswipe, i've only had insomnia since I was a child..I must just want to get high off of sleeping pills.

I wish someone would come over and club me over the head.

The day after I spoke to the superintendent...MAGICLY somehow they managed to find a teacher and classes will resume. I'm sure it was a "co-incidence", and they've been trying hard all along to find a teacher, and weren't just trying to drop the class while pretending they still had it.

NOBODY GIVES ME THE RUN-AROUND! NOBODYYYYYY!!! MWAHAHAHAHAHAHAH!

When will people finally learn that I always win at a game of wits? Being patient, and polite are fine and good..but when it comes down to it-it doesn't get shit done. I know when to smile, nod and turn on the charm as well, but when somebody assumes i'm stupid and willing to eat the bullshit they are feeding me..it's ON!

Don't ever let anyone push you around for the sake of being nice. It's not ever worth it.

Ragnorok is like 2 months away.......and here's my list of things still needed

1. a tent/ air mattress/sleeping bag
2. weapons that aren't busted
3. some garb ( I have 2 dresses, 2 skirts, a few tank tops that are garby, and medieval boots)
4. money
5. everything

I keep meaning to put away $50 every 2 weeks, but thanks to ridicouls phone bills that aren't even close to being accurate, and the vet, and the electric company...I have saved...whatever is in the change jar. Probably like 5 bucks in pennies. Oh and my dvd player took a shit and died so I need a new one. I cannot live without a dvd player as I rent movies like 10 times a week. I don't watch enough tv to justify getting cable..so I rent dvds. A lot. 

Maybe i'll get lucky and my dad will take pity on me, and give me some money or camping stuff. I wish someone else would take pity on me and help me make some weapons for the costs of materials. 

This retarded school is on my last, remaining nerve. I keep getting excuse after excuse on why they don't have a teacher..when all I want is to take home my work until they can get one. I called their SuperNintendo and he's pissed. if they refuse to help me then i'm more than prepared to contact the newspaper and media to get some attention on this.

Well considering i've been in constant pain the past week, I think it's safe to say i'm not going to the season opener. I am, however, making a dr.s appointment because i'm 99% sure I have (and have had for a while) Fibromyalgia. I suspected that may be a possibility a while ago but didn't look into it. After reading a list of symptoms and general information about it on the national site, it fits every health issue i've had in the past 2 years. I'm sure the dr. will take me just as seriously as they always do *rolls eyes*.

I do still want to brave the cold for Hash bash. It sounds extra fun this year. I want ot know what this "joint toss" thing is about. If people are gunna be throwing joints around..then i'm gunna be catching a couple. I will pass on the "turn yourself in" line. I don't need to be arrested in protest. Hippies can get right on that.

Which reminds me of an intelligent and intelectually simulating conversation i had with my good friend Uli in which he referred to me as a "tree-hugger". To this I replied :

It's Ok, I'm just cooler than you   says:
BUM-hugger

and his retort was:

Chicken soup makes me poop...down my leg and in my boot. says:
I only hug bums with my fist.  =)

and this concludes my post.
   

Today I went with Kat to pick up some kittens. Well we were going to look, but leaving any living thing there would have been gutwrenching. You see these animal cops shows on tv, and there's just no real comprehension of how badly off some animals are. These were some hoarders in a tiny house. They had probably 10 dogs in the livingroom, 3-4 more dogs outside fenced in, probably 7-10 ferrets in a cage that was piled with shit, 2-4 chinchillas, the sickley kittens and she had said she had more cats. The smell was awful. You couldn't even breathe in there. One of her un-neutered male cats randomly attacked me as I was petting it, and then attacked Kat later on when she was nowhere near it. The story was that these kittens mother was hit by a car, and their "neighbors" brought them over.  Who knows what the real truth is. The poor little kittens were in bad shape (and were sitting on a compleatly urine soaked towel), but the woman wasn't caring for them correctly so hopefully they'll get better and thrive. I just don't understand how people can be so stupid. It never ever ceases to amaze me.

Then I went with to Gaide which is always a joke. Some woman had a poor little rottweiler with parvo, who she was taking to animal control to put down. She made some lame halfassed, half-hearted comment of "oh I could just cry"...to which I couldn't control myself from blurting out "Well if my puppy was riddled with disease, and I had to put it to sleep I <b>would</b> cry". It is not that hard to take care of your animals. If you let your animals run wild outside to fight with strays and don't get them vaccinated..guess what happens? Your pets get sick and die. If you can't take care of your animals because either you are too stupid or don't care then just don't get any. Get a damn pet rock or a plant.

My digital scale is telling me I lost 14 pounds since last week.. I know this cannot be correct. Apparently it's time for a new new battery.
I'm trying to build muscle, so if anything my weight should have stayed the same or went up. i'm so sick of diets, weight loss, weight gain, lifting weights, exercise, eating right -or anything that involves those words. Everyone i know is trying to lose weight. Everyone. It feels like an endless fad, but if you are okay with yourself people have even more snarky things to say. I just want to drop a little weight for summer and ragnorok, because it's going to be hot and I don't want to wear clothes. *shrugs*

and now I have the hiccupps. Fuck.

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It 4 fucking o'clock and the mail is still not here.

Because of this

1. Adam is 2 hours late for work
2. my rent is not paied yet when I wanted to do it this afternoon
3. I obviously don't have my check.
4. I'll have to rush to the bank so that we can pay our bills today, and like uh have food later.

and on an unrelated note..while that new Enviga tastes good, and supposedly burns calories BUT ..it also burns my stomach.  I'm about ready to puke. Probably not enough to stop drinking it though.

I was the only person in class today. just me and my favorite teacher. I could have killed someone. The upside is that the sheet they gave me that says by state law I must be there for 60 hours doesn't apply to me, because i'm over 19. I can just graduate whenever my work is done-which means really soon. W00t.

THIS

Is why My friend Tami is dead. This is why she won't turn 22 in April, and get to live her life. This is why there won't be anymore good times. This is why countless families, children, mothers, fathers, uncles, aunts, friends, and grandparents die everyday. Because My "friend" (and I'm using the term loosely) Rachel, and her lame "friend's" think it's cool to drink and drive recklessly. I didn't realize endangering the lives of others was funny.


You need to go to AA or Rehab, or some other place where you can get help, because you have a problem. It's not funny, it's not cool, it's not sexy, it's not any of those other things you think it is. It's fucking stupid, and you will either die or kill someone else. I'm not going to give up on you, and i'm not going to let it go. I don't care if you hate me..I'm being a real friend, and real friend's don't sit by and watch their friends do shit like this. You can cry about it, and bitch, and change my email passwords, and talk about me in efforts to "turn people against" me..but that doesn't change anything. I will bother you until you help yourself.

This isn't a joke. It isn't funny. Do you want the people the actually care about you to have nothing left but old pictures?

Please leave a one-word comment that you think best describes me.

It can only be one word.

No more.

Then copy and paste this in your journal so that I may leave a word about you.



And... a kitten picture..cuz they are getting bigger, faster than I can post pictures of them.

( CloudKit )